I thought we can last forever and ever.

I thought you will be there for me.

I thought you love me.

I thought you are true to me.

BUT ALL THESE ARE JUST WHAT I THOUGHT.

Yes, I'm stupid that's why you can toy me again and again.

You thought that I'm so stupid that I will get on to your bail.

Sorry, you're wrong.

All this while, I felt so guilty and sorry.

Hurting you again and again.

I hate myself for not making up my choice.

I hate myself for loving my ex-boyfriend.

NOW I HATE YOU.

You said you love me.

You said you will only treat me good.

You said you will never dump me.

YES, THAT'S WHAT YOU SAID.

I thought you are stingy because you don't wish to spend too much money,

that's why i try to forgive you for letting me pay those stuffs myself.

But I'm wrong, WRONG TO THE MAX.

You don't wish to spend those money because you need to spend them on your GIRLFRIEND.

You can't manage your money well when you have 2 GIRLFRIENDS.

So I must be the one who share your stingy side, whereas she is the one who can spend your money!

I'm totally insane, believe your f-ing words.

Who the hell you think you are?!?! Trying to two-timer me?!

So if my friend didn't tell me she saw you with your girlfriend, are you going to keep it to me? Trying to make me feel bad for leaving you because of my ex-boyfriend?

You aren't anything better. If you love her that much, just go back to her.

I DON'T NEED YOU!

I DON'T NEED A F-ING PLAYBOY!

I hate myself for believing you broke up with her.

I hate myself for trusting you again and again.

In the end, you are enjoying yourself with her when i'm at home.

And please don't ask my friend stop big-mouth.

If she didn't tell me she ask you with your girlfriend, I guess I'm still in dark.

NOW I'M GONNA SAY, GO FOR THAT GIRL CAUSE I THINK SHE NEEDS YOU MORE.

可是當他不理我時 我卻會很想念他

我想這大概是我已經愛上他了吧

我告訴我自己何必讓自己這麼痛苦呢

像長輩說的找一個你愛的人倒不如找一個愛你的人

那這段感情或許會比較長久

也因為這樣我選擇放棄一個我愛了四年的人

選擇接受一個愛我兩年的人

他愛我 他疼我 他更懂得去了解我

最起碼他知道我還是放不下前男友的情況下 還願意留在我身邊

不離不棄的陪著我 關心我

謝謝你的一切 更謝謝你的愛

即使未來我不再愛你了 但起碼現在的我是想要好好的愛你

在我清醒之前我好想問問你 我們是否回到過去

回到四年前的今天 我絕對不會答應分手的

不管有多難受 我都要保護好我們這段感情

但是我很清楚的明白 時間是沒有辦法回去的

你不再愛我了 你不再想我了 你更加不需要我了

所以這些年來我選擇一個人 不談戀愛 不愛人

但這些卻換不到你的心

可憐?!?!

我不可憐 因為我知道這世界上只要不放棄 我一定會成功

四年不行 那我就等五年 五年不行 那我就等六年

你知道嗎 很多人問我為甚麼這麼愛你

其實我也不知道 或許是因為放不下吧

也或許是我不想認輸

今天我會好好的過 因為未來的三月十六日會是我們的紀念日

All thanks to your lies, your wonderful lies.

I seems to be an idiot who trust whatever you said.

"I've a girlfriend. I lied to you that I've a girlfriend. Actually I've a girlfriend."

If you really have a girlfriend, just admit it cause I don't care.

But you lied to me again and again.

If I didn't ask you again, are you going to lie to me forever?

I hate you! I hate lies.

I know I did lie to you, but well at least I didn't betray you before.

Now I wanted to shout Game Over, but am I too cruel?

I told myself never ever like a guy who lied to me.

I can''t help myself but to keep a distance from you.

Maybe you can feel like that I reply you late for today, because I was staring at my phone wondering should I reply you.

I'm treating you cold, because I can't face you like the past.

Assuming nothing happen.

Just give me some times to think about our problem....

I've been jobless for 1week plus.

Gosh, Giordano please contact me asap!!

I want to work! I want to buy new clothes!

I want to buy new bags! I want to buy new lashes!

I just need money for my Korea Trip!

I guess I will need to update my blog more often.

OR I should close down this blog and open my new blog!

Good idea right :)

Start all over again, just like me and him!

I like you too ^^

I'm feeling super duper happy!

Firstly, I'm ending my attachment next thursday, which means Diploma is over.

Secondly, tomorrow is chinese new year eve. Steamboat, new clothes and red packets!!

Thirdly, I'm going to a prize award ceremony to see SHINee! Bought the ticket few days ago.

Lastly, I'M GOING KOREA ON 19 MAY TO 31 MAY!!

What can I say other than I'm super lucky?!?!

I wanted to go taiwan like 3 years ago and korea like 6 months ago. In the end, Korea actually win Taiwan. I'm flying off on 19 May!! 7 days after my 20 birthday!!

Wooots hope to see SS501, U-Kiss, ZE:A and 2pm!!

Tried, time to sleep. Need to be up by 6 am tomorrow morning! HWATING!

Have not blog for like so long!

Alright, I met alot of friends during this period of time.

Let's recall what i did during this period of time.

28Jan 'd dinner with BestFriend.

Met up with my sister and brenda to fetch SHINee on 29Jan.

30Jan 'd BBQ with twofour-ians.

6Feb went back Peicai for friendly match with b girls,

met Amirah and Linx at PS for shopping.

Aishh, alot of things happened.

Mr. L, the more you move forward, the more i will move backward.

I'm not saying you are not good, but you aren't the one who suits me.

Or I should say, now you aren't the one who I like.

I'm sorry for being so selfish.

I always want to keep you by my side, cause I know you will protect me no matter what.

Please forgive me once.

Because I need someone to be with me now, but not as a boyfriend.