This love will last

THE MEANING OF TWO-TIMER.

2010-04-19T11:25:00.002+08:00

I thought we can be a good couple.

I thought we can last forever and ever.

I thought you will be there for me.

I thought you love me.

I thought you are true to me.

BUT ALL THESE ARE JUST WHAT I THOUGHT.

Yes, I'm stupid that's why you can toy me again and again.

You thought that I'm so stupid that I will get on to your bail.

Sorry, you're wrong.

All this while, I felt so guilty and sorry.

Hurting you again and again.

I hate myself for not making up my choice.

I hate myself for loving my ex-boyfriend.

NOW I HATE YOU.

You said you love me.

You said you will only treat me good.

You said you will never dump me.

YES, THAT'S WHAT YOU SAID.

I thought you are stingy because you don't wish to spend too much money,

that's why i try to forgive you for letting me pay those stuffs myself.

But I'm wrong, WRONG TO THE MAX.

You don't wish to spend those money because you need to spend them on your GIRLFRIEND.

You can't manage your money well when you have 2 GIRLFRIENDS.

So I must be the one who share your stingy side, whereas she is the one who can spend your money!

I'm totally insane, believe your f-ing words.

Who the hell you think you are?!?! Trying to two-timer me?!

So if my friend didn't tell me she saw you with your girlfriend, are you going to keep it to me? Trying to make me feel bad for leaving you because of my ex-boyfriend?

You aren't anything better. If you love her that much, just go back to her.

I DON'T NEED YOU!

I DON'T NEED A F-ING PLAYBOY!

I hate myself for believing you broke up with her.

I hate myself for trusting you again and again.

In the end, you are enjoying yourself with her when i'm at home.

And please don't ask my friend stop big-mouth.

If she didn't tell me she ask you with your girlfriend, I guess I'm still in dark.

NOW I'M GONNA SAY, GO FOR THAT GIRL CAUSE I THINK SHE NEEDS YOU MORE.

決定

2010-03-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

愛情很奇怪當他在我身邊時我總會想要遠離他

可是當他不理我時我卻會很想念他

我想這大概是我已經愛上他了吧

我告訴我自己何必讓自己這麼痛苦呢

像長輩說的找一個你愛的人倒不如找一個愛你的人

那這段感情或許會比較長久

也因為這樣我選擇放棄一個我愛了四年的人

選擇接受一個愛我兩年的人

他愛我他疼我他更懂得去了解我

最起碼他知道我還是放不下前男友的情況下還願意留在我身邊

不離不棄的陪著我關心我

謝謝你的一切更謝謝你的愛

即使未來我不再愛你了但起碼現在的我是想要好好的愛你

眼淚

2010-03-16T20:38:00.002+08:00

TEARS.

在我清醒之前我好想問問你我們是否回到過去

回到四年前的今天我絕對不會答應分手的

不管有多難受我都要保護好我們這段感情

但是我很清楚的明白時間是沒有辦法回去的

你不再愛我了你不再想我了你更加不需要我了

所以這些年來我選擇一個人不談戀愛不愛人

但這些卻換不到你的心

可憐?!?!

我不可憐因為我知道這世界上只要不放棄我一定會成功

四年不行那我就等五年五年不行那我就等六年

你知道嗎很多人問我為甚麼這麼愛你

其實我也不知道或許是因為放不下吧

也或許是我不想認輸

今天我會好好的過因為未來的三月十六日會是我們的紀念日

很受傷

2010-03-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

I'm really hurt.

All thanks to your lies, your wonderful lies.

I seems to be an idiot who trust whatever you said.

"I've a girlfriend. I lied to you that I've a girlfriend. Actually I've a girlfriend."

If you really have a girlfriend, just admit it cause I don't care.

But you lied to me again and again.

If I didn't ask you again, are you going to lie to me forever?

I hate you! I hate lies.

I know I did lie to you, but well at least I didn't betray you before.

Now I wanted to shout Game Over, but am I too cruel?

I told myself never ever like a guy who lied to me.

I can''t help myself but to keep a distance from you.

Maybe you can feel like that I reply you late for today, because I was staring at my phone wondering should I reply you.

I'm treating you cold, because I can't face you like the past.

Assuming nothing happen.

Just give me some times to think about our problem....

Foolish couple

2010-03-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

I've been jobless for 1week plus.

Gosh, Giordano please contact me asap!!

I want to work! I want to buy new clothes!

I want to buy new bags! I want to buy new lashes!

I just need money for my Korea Trip!

I guess I will need to update my blog more often.

OR I should close down this blog and open my new blog!

Good idea right :)

Start all over again, just like me and him!

I like you too ^^

한곡

2010-02-12T23:01:00.002+08:00

KOREA!!!

I'm feeling super duper happy!

Firstly, I'm ending my attachment next thursday, which means Diploma is over.

Secondly, tomorrow is chinese new year eve. Steamboat, new clothes and red packets!!

Thirdly, I'm going to a prize award ceremony to see SHINee! Bought the ticket few days ago.

Lastly, I'M GOING KOREA ON 19 MAY TO 31 MAY!!

What can I say other than I'm super lucky?!?!

I wanted to go taiwan like 3 years ago and korea like 6 months ago. In the end, Korea actually win Taiwan. I'm flying off on 19 May!! 7 days after my 20 birthday!!

Wooots hope to see SS501, U-Kiss, ZE:A and 2pm!!

Tried, time to sleep. Need to be up by 6 am tomorrow morning! HWATING!

美麗的回憶

2010-02-07T17:09:00.002+08:00

Those beautiful memories.

Have not blog for like so long!

Alright, I met alot of friends during this period of time.

Let's recall what i did during this period of time.

28Jan 'd dinner with BestFriend.

Met up with my sister and brenda to fetch SHINee on 29Jan.

30Jan 'd BBQ with twofour-ians.

6Feb went back Peicai for friendly match with b girls,

met Amirah and Linx at PS for shopping.

Aishh, alot of things happened.

Mr. L, the more you move forward, the more i will move backward.

I'm not saying you are not good, but you aren't the one who suits me.

Or I should say, now you aren't the one who I like.

I'm sorry for being so selfish.

I always want to keep you by my side, cause I know you will protect me no matter what.

Please forgive me once.

Because I need someone to be with me now, but not as a boyfriend.

2010

2010-01-03T21:35:00.002+08:00

TWO ZERO ONE ZERO!

Another year had gone, and now its 2010.

Everything is new.

New life, new friends, new furnitures, new mindset, new goals, new style, new BOYFRIEND?!?!

hahaha, new boyfriend will be future but not now.

Went johor on new year, and yah a new year with family.

Went for a hairdo yesterday.

Rebonded my hair and cut my fringe.

Feissy said I look like SHINee key now.

She said this, "So now you are lock?!?!"

I'm laughing like mad when I read it.

Feissy, you are damn cute!!

After 4 years, my ex-boyfriend talked to me.

I'm jumping around like mad girl.

4 YEARS! I waited so long and finally this day came!!

I know it means nothing, but I'm really very happy.

Thanks for making my 2010 so great and the beginning!

All the best for you :)

너 때문에

2009-12-19T23:01:00.002+08:00

Because of you.

I realised I didn't blog for more thn 1 week.

Hahaha, and my tagboard is not moving..

Maybe I should just close it because I'm so lazy to blog everyday >.<

Okay, next week Terence will come and join me in GIC.

One more intern coming on monday too.

Woots, so many guys there ^^

11guys and 3girls :)

Hahaha rubbish.

Anyway next week is CHRISTMAS and i haven prepare present for colleagues.

Next saturday year-end family gathering again.

Meeting up everyone :)

1Jan going johor with family and elaine for shopping.

HURRAY!! I'm so happy!

I'm tired, so I shall go sleep alr.

Goodnight everyone :)

FT ISLAND!

2009-12-11T06:40:00.002+08:00

FT ISLAND!

Last night seriously was the first time I went to fetch some idols.
Usually I will just send them off, but now I went to fetch them on the very first day.
Reason because I'm afraid not to see FT ISLAND and BEG on sunday.
But in the end BEG didn't appear last night at airport.
Security told us that they will be here this morning.
That's pretty saddening cause I wanted to see Ga-In and Narsha,
but I can't cause I have work today.
Hopefully things goes smoothly on this sunday!

Back to yesterday.
Working is still fine cause time passes super fast.
Lunched with Rentro since Lisita they all went lunch without waiting for me to end my meeting.
After work, headed down to raffles place to meet Justina,
and trained down to airport.
My elder sister actually went there without tell me.
So I was with Linda throughout the whole thing
and thanks to her, i got to stand next to the barrer,
which leds me to a closer view to see Jonghun.
9.45 flight arrival and they dragged until 10.45
which seriously pissed me off.

But overall I'm still contented,
as I get to see JongHun in real even though they walk super fast.
hahaha, shall blog tonight.
byeeee!

SS501

2009-12-06T22:23:00.002+08:00

Double S 501

Today went out with parents in the morning for praying.
Back home awhile thn went out to meet Elaine at city hall.
Got her 2pm album from HMV and headed down to bugis.

Finally bought my boyfriend blazer.
Met my peas at 4plus to get my MBC collection.
dinner-ed at illuma with peas.

I'm tired now, but im watching my dvd now!!
seriously husband looks good in this photobook <3

那愛我的你

2009-12-05T23:30:00.002+08:00

That guy who love me.

Finally went down to get my debit card done.
Hurray, and i can use it when i go overseas!!!
Tomorrow need to do my passport,
1Jan going Johor for shopping with daddy :)
Wondering who should I ask to go with me.
Hopefully mommy will go with us (:

Anyway today went for my eye testing
and my degree went up.
its like 50 and 100!!!
i want perfect eye sight~!
so please stop increasing~ i don't want!!

alright, im tired. goodnight~

情侶

2009-12-04T21:49:00.002+08:00

COUPLES.

Look at my blog, its so dead and i've not been updating like 2weeks.
Zomg, its time to blog something up.
Last week was a busy working week, i worked for 7days.
Or i should say i have been working since last monday until now.
Worked at SITEX last week with Elaine and i met so many new friends :)
But im damn shag and tired!!
I need my beauty sleep~!

Today went a workshop and its damn freaking boring.
Those people were like arguing here and there.
Omg, seriously those girls are really career women!
I don't wish to be like them. :P

Anyway, today is Justina and Esther's last day of ITP,
and they will be going over to OCBC next week for their next ITP.
I will miss them badly.
I guess everyone of us will miss them badly.
Hahaha, esp kevin and rita!!!
I found an office underground couple today ^^
Don't think that we don't know,
actually we know it very long ago..
Before justina and esther leave, they told me this
'Next office couple will be you and your friend.'
I just smiled and say, 'even it happen, it will not last long.'
He betrayed me once, so how am I suppose to trust him again?

Okay, off to my cinderella man and bed soon..

累了就休息吧

2009-11-21T13:34:00.002+08:00

Have a nice rest.

I'm here to update again!
NOW I'M AT SHEUELEE'S HOUSE WITH MY GIRLFRIENDS.
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Girlfriends are studying their accounting,
and I'm blogging now.
I'm so bored now~!

Yesterday, met up with bestfriends after work.
'd dinner at habourfront's pizzahut.
Slacked and talk about our work.
They don't let me complain about my work,
so I was busy calling my friends.
Suppose to work today and tmr for starhub.
But Ujin can't give us a good deal,
so we declined it.
Next week maybe working for IT fair.

Finally I got my IT fair pay.
End of this month, I will get my first ITP's pay!
HURRAY~
I can go shopping with my colleagues and friends.

Next wednesday going KBOX with colleagues after work.
Thats really tiring~
Next day I'm still working!
I guess they will be taking leave on the next day!!!
Hopefully it will be a peaceful day for us.

OFF TO MY VIDEOS...

6:45AM

2009-11-20T06:48:00.002+08:00

It's super early!
I guess most people are still sleeping now,
but I'm preparing to go work alr.
Tiring day!!
4th week~
It's ending soon, I guess...

I need to prepare my breakfast now.
Shall blog again today ^^

怎麼了

2009-11-13T22:12:00.002+08:00

what happened?

Today is Friday the 13th.
I thought I will be super unlucky,
but instead I super happy.
SS501 won Music Bank today!
HURRAY! Congrats baby and in-laws.
Next Bummie .. I like your performance.
You are super charming. <3

Thanks to them who brighten up my day.
Today is quite slacking in office too.
Slacked around with colleagues and yah I LOVE RITA!!

I might not know what exactly happens to you,
but I know you are feeling down now.
I don't know how to comfort you, so I left you alone.
Don't feel disgusted, cause love will always be in this way.
If you feel disgusted, thn thats not true love.
I have no idea what happens to you and your girlfriend,
but still I just want to let you know,
no matter what happens, be yourself.

我會放你走的

2009-11-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

I will let you go.

Tomorrow will be monday and I will need to work again.
Thats really sad man!
I wonder will I get my work by tomorrow.
If not I will spend my monday writing my fic again.
Thats really boring~ cause the time passed off slowly.

Tired and exhausted.
I'm sick and tired of all this.
I tried to understand you, I tried to let you go in the past,
but I failed to do so.
Now you wants to leave, and I promised I will never hold on to you.
I will let you go, let you go towards your new love
and that will be the end of our story.
I said we will be friends, but I don't mean it.
Cause I can't face you anymore.
A guy who I trusted the most, thinks that he will not disappoint me,
but in the end you are the one who betray me, betray this relationship.
I guess they are right, you don't worth to be my partner, my love.
As I said Goodbye, I really mean Goodbye.
We will end our story here,
so even if you get to see me in future, I will pretend that I didnt know you.
Hopefully, you will pretend that you don't know me too.

One day, as I walking on the road with another guy,
I hope you will walk pass me and don't call me.
Cause I don't wish my partner knows your presence and know about our past.
As its too ..... heartbreaking ...

我很想念你

2009-11-03T21:23:00.003+08:00

I MISSED YOU BADLY.

I'm too lazy to update the past few days.

last friday went lunch with colleauges,

and they are really damn funny.

having fun, laughing around.

Christopher, im sorry about it :P

kokyong and gary, i know you guys like me alot :D

anyway met up with girlfriends after work.

'd dinner at pizza hut,

thn home around 10plus.

last saturday met up with fei in the afternoon to mail my parcel.

thn met up xiaochu they all in the evening to collect our albums :)

LIMITED EDITION REBIRTH ALBUM!!!

stayed at home the whole day on sunday.

yesterday was my second week of ITP.

I really love Justina and Esther!

Soon you girls are leaving alr,

and i will miss you girls badly!

累爆了

2009-10-29T22:40:00.003+08:00

Super duper tired.

Forth day of my internship,

and Im super shag now.

I've no idea why im feeling so tired.

Its more tiring thn working in IT fair.

Gosh!

But I need to say this company is nice.

the aircon is super duper cold.

Colleagues there are friendly :)

Tmr is lewis birthday so having celebration during lunch break.

And mr low coming down tmr.

Tell you guys something, I got my own desk!

hahahaha so funny.

Im sitting with those employees in GIC

whereas the other two interns ( Justina and Esther ) sit at another corner.

Super cool,

and photos of my desk.

PS: please forgive me if you think there is too much food,

cause i need them to perk me up.

最後一天

2009-10-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY.

Starting internship tomorrow,

and it will be a bad starting for me.

New environment, new group of people.

I wonder how can i interact with them.

But I told myself, "I can do it. I don't need to rely on anyone"

I will be very good,

and prove to those people that I can do it.

I will bid goodbye to everything today.

Goodbye Singapore poly,

Goodbye friends,

Goodbye holidays,

Goodbye lazybum,

and Goodbye YOU.

INKIGAYO - ING!!!!

Jiyong jiayou <3

Husband and brother-in-laws hwating!!

頭好痛

2009-10-23T22:42:00.002+08:00

HEADACHE.

My head seems like going to crack.

The pain dont just dont go off and 3days alr.

Panadols arent helping me...

I need to sleep, i need to rest,

but i just cant.

I wonder why I volunteer to do all this thing.

It meant to be a PH event,

but ending up, im the one doing the whole thing.

Recording videos, getting everyone's photos,

doing it into a video.

Freak man.

Have been hugging this stupid movie maker for the past 3days

and its not completed.

Im the one who get the DVD, do the cover.

15ppl in this event and its like im the only one doing it.

I will never volunteer doing all this anymore.

and singapore fans are the one not cooperating.

Those from mexico and US are so responsible,

sending in their photos and msg when i ask from them.

I need to rest.

Im having my work on monday.

But Im wasting my last 4days in this way.

你的聲音

2009-10-19T22:16:00.002+08:00

hear your voice.

updates!!!

last saturday went to meet peas at tampine ikea in the afternoon,

had birthday celebrations and recording.

hopefully this event will turn out nice,

and YS Oppa will like this present :)

sent fei home thn cabbed down to parkway to meet boy-friends.

went old changi road for dinner,

thn went bugis's ice monster for desert.

back home around 11.

went out with grandma, aunty and mommy.

went mommy's 2nd brother's house,

thn went temple baibai.

thn grandma suddenly wanted to visit grandpa.

So cabbed down to the temple where grandpa and grandmas 靈牌 is.

found grandpa and grandmas,

but i cant find my great grandpa and great grandma.

Aunty is really super funny.

Grandma was like looking at grandpa's 靈牌,

and she said, "ahma miss her husband. Now she talking to him."

after all praying, cabbed back to grandma's house.

slacked thn trained home.

1hour and 30minutes!

Jinhao, happy advance birthday :)

是真還是假

2009-10-15T15:08:00.002+08:00

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!

I NEED TO SCREAM OUT LOUD!

SUPER LOUD!

EVEN THOUGH I NOT SURE IM GOING ANOT.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

CHOI JONGHUN IS COMING SINGAPORE WITH FT ISLAND.

AND GA-IN IS COMING WITH BROWN EYED GIRLS.

IM GOING CRAZY WHEN I SAW THIS NEWS.

YOU KNOW I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

THE HOTTEST AND SEXY GIRLS WHO I LIKE IS COMING SINGAPORE.

THAT ABRACADABRA DANCE .... AND CANDY MAN....

THE MOST COOL BAND WHO I EVER KNOW....

SINGING I HOPE ... MISSING YOU .. LOVE SICK ...

RAINING ... UNTIL YOU RETURN ...

ZOMG ALL THOSE SONGS!

EVEN THOUGH I NOT SURE I GOING FOR THAT CONCERT ANOT,

BUT STILL THEY COMING TO SINGAPORE.

I THINK AT LEAST I WILL GO AIRPORT TO SEE THEM,

IF MY BOSS LET ME TAKE LEAVE!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......

*SCREAMSSSS*

닥조림

2009-10-12T23:04:00.004+08:00

Spicy Chicken & Potato Stew.

I went to trim my hair on saturday.

And now I've bangs again :)

Yesterday went out to get my bag and heels for ITP.

Went funeral in the afternoon.

Today did some Java revision.

Was feeling bored in the afternoon,

so I tried to do Spicy Chicken & Potato Stew.

Its really SPICY!

Even mommy and brother said its damn Spicy.

So ended I add sugar.

But overall its still okay.

Cause we finished up the whole thing.

I will try doing Sushi next week :)

And below are Spicy Chicken & Potato Stew's picture.

照片~

2009-10-10T09:58:00.018+08:00

PHOTOS

3OCT - QUAINTE OUTING

All Mr Kims' cards

xiaochu

xiaochu and linda

brenda hazel linda and me

brenda

brenda and xiaochu

hazel and xiaochu

judy

brenda and judy

hazel and judy

xiaochu hazel feissy and brenda

brenda hazel linda xiaochu feissy

hazel

look at this two dongsaeng

linda and her husband

hazel and leader

judy and leader

brenda and leader

feissy

adillia

pat

4OCT - Teacher's house

5OCT - Elaine's birthday

8OCT - GIRLFRIENDS!

失蹤了?!

2009-10-10T09:46:00.002+08:00

Did I went MIA?

I think i should update my blog everyday,

cause its really super dead!

Or i should make it public again?

5OCT

Elaine's birthday!

so met up her at cityhall after her school.

Went Fish and co. for a meal.

PS: everyone is looking at her because of her super big spoongebob balloon.

After lunch, went shopping and we got a same polo tee :)

thn headed down to bugis.

Aunty came around 6,

thn went shopping again.

Uncle and cousins came around 6plus thn went sakae teppanyaki for dinner.

thanks for the dinner :)

6OCT

Intend to stay at home before night class,

but i failed again.

zw called and asked me go mac find him and gs.

so went out to find them and zx came.

slacked until 5 thn went home.

my 7th lesson and im still trying to figure out what my teacher saying.

Really damn difficult!

8OCT

Met bestfriends for lunch and causeway point.

thn went back to school for SCJP lesson.

waited the time to pass,

and went to meet girlfriends at ms.

STEAMBOAT!

Woots, i miss them so much.

Counting back.

HOW LONG IS OUR FRIENDSHIP?!

MORE THAN 10YEARS!

ZOMG, girlfriends we are so old now!

zx, we really have old bodies.

好忙哦!!

2009-10-05T10:16:00.002+08:00

Busy Busy Busy..

Last thursday went year3 class chalet.

I think we did nothing much there.

Just playing mahjong with them.

Left around 9plus,

intended to slack until morning.

But after dinner, bestfriends want to play mahjong.

So bused back to my house and mahjong until 5.

slept until 7 thn breakfasted.

continue to mahjong until 2.

But I didnt play money, so I guess I'm still okay.

I will quit gambling :)

Saturday went Quainte outing.

So met up some new friends,

but still I know some old friends.

Feissy, Linda, Hazel, Brenda, Xiaochu & Pat.

Did some cards for our husbands,

thn dinnered at fig & olive.

after dinner, went roof top to slack until 10plus thn trained home.

Sunday met up with Peas again.

Went Mai's house, and started to gossip again.

Well thats what a bunch of girls can do.

slacked until 6plus,

went over to white sand for dinner.

thn back home around 8plus.

phoned dadada until 9plus.

Feissy thought me and dadada together.

OMO! Feissy, I love guys.

And I've my husband alr.

We are close because our husbands are good friends/brothers.

Now I will love you more kays.

And dadada, I think we try not to meet up this week.

I dont want to see you every week,

cause I will get sick of it :P

Today is ELAINE's birthday.

So bringing her to yukiyaki later for lunch.

thn dinner at sakae tonight with her family.

ZOMG, I'm getting more and more fat now.

I've been eating since last last saturday :(

This week my schedule is full again.

Today for elaine.

Tomorrow got night class.

Wednesday night with Jonghun's friend.

Thursday with girlfriends.

Friday going back school.

Saturday & Sunday need to accompany family alr.

the past 1month, i have not been home on friday saturday and sunday.

I guess daddy is angry with me alr :P

anyway photos will be up most likely tonight.

我真的很累但又能怎樣呢

2009-09-29T23:48:00.002+08:00

I'm really tired, but what else can i do?

Went chalet on saturday late afternoon.

The same chalet as the first one.

Like what i said, we started here and ended here.

First night was all about guys.

11guys and 1girl.

Other people might be thinking why there is only 1girl there.

hahaha, who cares.

I ate alot during this chalet.

I'd dinner with hongen they all.

thn after that the rest went for dinner,

i'd drinks and icecream.

after that chips while watching tv.

8guys went cycling at 12,

so left 6 of us there.

watched tv and slacking.

went cheers to buy cup noodles at 3plus.

'd them and start chatting again.

waited until 5plus but the rest not back yet,

so fell asleep.

woke up at 8plus,

went breakfast with some guys.

carrot cakes, but it taste bad.

thn back to chalet.

slacked awhile thn went breakfast again with cousin they all.

had some desert.

back to chalet and card games all the way.

Laurene came around 3plus,

thn went to Ehub for pool.

& Linda came too :)

BBQ at 6plus,

thn something bad happened.

Well, I can only say as long as that group of girls appear,

I will quarrel with my guy friends.

I'm not saying I hate them or what,

but i just dont like that way they talk,

and maybe the way my guy friends treat them and us differently.

whole night with Linda and Laurene.

I really love them so much.

check-out at 10 reached home 10plus.

Today went out lunch with bestfriends.

thn night class until 9pm.

Tomorrow will be another day doing and planning for the event.

Truly speaking its not easy to plan an event.

I need to gather everyone around the world to participant.

Everyone is suppose to give me their stuffs latest by this weekend,

but until now i didnt receive any emails from anyone of them.

I totally hate all this.

Please, im using my holidays to do all this.

And im not paid for all this.

Even though im willing to do all this,

but dont take it for granted.

I'm not having any breaks until sunday!

What a nice week i've,

and next week will not be easy for me too.

照片

2009-09-28T22:09:00.019+08:00

PHOTOS.

PARTY嘍!

2009-09-26T12:08:00.003+08:00

LET'S GO PARTY, TWOFOURS~

Having twofour chalet today!
Woots, have been like months since we last met up.
I want to hug everyone of them and tell them how much i miss them.
Hahaha, but its really tiring to hug all the guys.
I know its super gay for a group of guys in a chalet,
so I join in today :)
Lets party for the next 2days also.
Don't care about other things.
Just enjoy ourselves, drink as much as possible.
I'm not going to bother those sad stuffs now.

BYEE EVERYONE!
I'M GOING PARTY!
BUT I FEEL LIKE GOING OUT TONIGHT INSTEAD OF STAYING AT THE CHALET.

如果還能從來

2009-09-23T14:19:00.002+08:00

Only if iI can turn back the time.
I wish I can get back to June,
and I'll not miss that chance meeting you.
Now, even though we met but if listen to what my friend said,
I'll be able to know you earlier.

You taught me how to be brave,
and think for others.
Well, I'm learning all this from you.
Thanks for your guidance.
I'm your Princess Pri right :)
You are my White Prince. (you know why i call you white prince one) :P

너를 다시 봐도 넌 넌 내 사랑
수백번 봐도 난 난 네 사랑
하늘이 맺어준 넌 내 사랑
니가 잠시 길을 잃은 것 뿐이야
다시 태어나도 너만 바래
다시 사랑해도 너만 바래
돌아올거야 돌아올거야
니가 없는 나는 없으니까

일분이 그리억져요

2009-09-22T13:57:00.003+08:00

Thinking of you.

(if you know embarassing, thn dont put the ramen inside your pants)

Let's not have painful love or sad love but have pretty love FOREVER <3.

im so bored now.

entertaining myself with those videos.

subbing teams haven sub finish FO :(

having night class later.

But im not very happy,

cause today will be a new teacher teaching us.

Chris어빠 not teaching us anymore.

He going back to korea after this F1 job.

Hope next year can go visit him :)

I will miss him badly.

Miss him calling me Kae찌 in class.

ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

너무나 많이 사랑한 죄

2009-09-19T23:32:00.003+08:00

That I loved them so much, that I loved you so much.

(FT.ISLAND HAVING DINNER AT HAN KOOK GWAN)

Alright, today met up with sister and shirley they all.

Went to han kook gwan for korean BBQ.
I talked to them using my lousy korean,
but in the end we gave up and talk in chinese :)
It really damn nice to have that pork belly with ssangchu.
GOSH, i can't forget the taste.
And the kimchi! Ginseng Chicken Soup.
Everything is so nice!
I will go back again with linda they all.

Went there because FT.ISLAND went there during june.
So i saw their photos and autograph.
I was taking photo when billing,
and Boss saw it.
He asked I like FT.ISLAND?!
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Me and sam quickly say YESH!
So he told us those stories, and blah blah blah.
When billing, he gave us 10% discount cause we are FT.ISLAND's fans.
ZOMG, super duper nice boss.
감사합니다 Boss.
I will bring more people down :)

After BBQ, went down to raffles place to chill.
Spazzing over Kpop and BBT.
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
freak man.
I totally spazzing over KPOP!
Yes, Kpop is all over my room :D

AND LEE HONGKI, YOU ARE SUPER DUPER HOT!

남자친구

2009-09-19T10:17:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend?!

Finally i can upload photos alr.

having a hard time uploading photos in blogger.

남자친구 = boyfriend.

suddenly wanted to say about my boyfriend.

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ (haha)

super random.

cause the previous day i told mommy i going out this two days.

She actually asked me am i going dating with boyfriend.

what a cute mommy i've.

남자친구 어디 있어요?

Anyway, yesterday went out with Peas.

Got our tags alr.

So nice, but that MALAYSIA not very nice.

ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

its like why are we buying malaysia FC's tag?!

weird, but i still like that tag.

its raining now,

and im going out later for korea BBQ.

hopefully later wouldnt rain.

이홍기

2009-09-18T11:08:00.002+08:00

Lee HongKi.

Flooding myself with all ft-island's songs now.
HongKi's voice really very nice,
and ofcourse they looks cute.
AND ONE POINT IS HONGKI SAME AGE AS ME!
GOSH! HE IS STANDING ON THE STAGE PERFORMING AND EARNING MONEY NOW.
BUT IM STILL WASTING MY TIME NOW!
PS: HongKi, you're really a sweet boyfriend. :)

愛情裡, 只有你和我.

2009-09-17T16:07:00.002+08:00

There is only you and me inside our love story.

I'm still havng cough now.

& its really not good, cause im coughing like nobody business.

Anyway, got up early in the morning.

Not because i'm going out or what.

Because promised huijing to go jogging with her.

So met her at 6.30AM and went for jogging.

We're super healthy :)

Came back home and found out my new MSN is giving my IE problems.

I simply can't get into Internet,

so I got no choice but to reformat my laptop.

All my programs are gone,

and now it loads freaking fast.

Rotting for like 4days alr.

Finally tmr can get out.

Meet Peas tomorrow to get my Tag from Irene :)

Saturday Korea BBQ with sisters.

Sunday family day.

Woots, busy life with all my friends.

AND REMEMBER TO GO TO MY WRETCH TO SEE ALL MY NEW STORIES.

曾經失愛, 焉知非福

2009-09-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

have lost love, how can you know the non-fu

「我要跟妳分手。」
除夕夜，電話那端傳來男友的聲音。

簡短單調的幾個字，像一串鞭炮在她耳邊轟然炸開。
她腦袋空白一片，無法思考。

「快點出來吃飯了。」房門外有聲音喚著，是媽。
大夥兒在飯桌上全坐齊了，只差她。
此時此刻不適合哭泣，她於是深吸了好幾口氣，帶著渾身止不住的抖，走向笑笑鬧鬧的爸媽弟妹一家子人。

她不記得桌上有什麼好菜、不記得電視裡的賀歲節目裡演了些什麼，不記得飯後的賭局孰勝孰敗。
關於那個除夕夜的鎖瑣碎碎，入了她的腦袋，全變成收訊不良的雪花訊號。

直到夜深，回到房間鑽進被窩，眼淚才開始瘋狂奔流。
她咬住棉被，不願意驚動家人。
交往六年，只差婚嫁，父母要是知道她受了這種委屈，一定比她更痛。

心臟疼得受不了。
忍到極限，她終於放聲大哭。
家人衝進房間，知道了消息，緊緊抱住蜷縮成一團的她。
那夜，全家都哭了。

「原來一段感情要結束，真的可以毫無徵兆。」Lin說。
回憶起那段被驟然宣告中止的感情，連她自己也覺得頗為不可思議。

大學時候，Lin和男友是登對的校園情侶，畢業後兩人各自飛回家鄉，遙遙相許。
「大學畢業，是一個分手的高峰期。」
Lin這麼說：「很多在學校愛的要死要活的情侶，一拿到畢業證書，跨出校門，沒幾個月就分了。」「我跟他，其實是大家最看好的一對。」

小小一個台灣，劃出了一條直線往返的愛情航線。
Lin和男友每半個月見一次面，輪流往對方的方向移動。

畢業後，大家的人生步驟都如出一轍，先是找個好工作，再來找個好對象。
Lin和男友同時通過教師甄試，一南一北投入了穩定的教職生涯。
兩個人生，同時順遂。

接下來，理所當然的下一個人生景點，想當然就是婚姻了。
「畢業之後，我跟他教書兩年多，他沒提結婚的事情，我也不急，當時我覺得只要兩個人有默契，早點結或是晚個一、兩年結，都不是問題。」Lin說。

穩定的工作、穩定的感情。
Lin的人生風景，像一片萬里無雲的海洋風景，微風輕撫，波瀾全無。
「在接到他電話的那個除夕夜晚，我的世界整個驟變。」

「我反覆問自己同一句話：怎麼可能、怎麼可能、怎麼可能……」
「明明我們之間的相處，就一直很甜蜜；明明上個禮拜，他還來我家陪我父母一起吃飯；明明我們都已經約好，暑假要一起出國……」來自男友的那句「我要跟妳分手」，聽起來不像是協商；而像是宣判。

那判決理由呢？那事發經過呢？可否緩刑？可否上訴？
「可不可以，誰來告訴我，這一切都不是真的？」Lin終於知道，小說和電影裡，女主角瀕臨瘋狂的絕望哭喊，原來不只是一種戲劇手法。

「我像一個莫名其妙被宣判死刑的罪人。」
Lin停下，皺眉，補上一句：「不只是愛情的死刑，而是人生的死刑。」

用電話、用信件，用所有卑微的形式，Lin以一種最狼狽的姿勢，試圖拼裝出男友離開的真實原因。
男友從拒絕說明，到最後坦承他「已經打算跟另一個女人，結婚。」

不是喜歡別人；而是愛上別人。
不是打算跟其他人交往，而是已經計劃結婚。
無可翻盤。

原來，世界上所有東西，都可以無預警的悄然崩解―――在妳還全心相信的時候。
「分手後，我依舊搭火車去學校教書，可是坐在位置上，眼淚常常會無法克制的掉下來，」
回憶起那段難熬的時日，Lin幽幽的說：「我常常就這麼毫無意識的流了滿臉淚，一直到火車上的到站廣播響起，才猛然驚醒，匆匆下車。」
「我不相信感情可以這樣說消失就消失，也不死心，於是連續好幾個禮拜，天天寫一封信往南部寄，打算用耐心感動他，把他喚回來。」
「他從不回覆我隻字片語，有一天我下班回到家，家人遞過來一封信，一看那字跡就知道是他，我興奮到差點沒哭出來。」

急急拆開信，讀完。
她不發一語回到房間，那晚，沒再多說一個字。

原來，男友裝在信裡頭的，不是Lin苦盼多日的回心轉意。
而是一帖解藥。

簡短幾句話，躺在單調的信紙上：
妳不要來找我，我不可能單獨和妳見面。
我也不會讓妳進我家。
即使妳只是找我想吃頓飯，我的未婚妻也會在場。

就這麼簡單幾句話，Lin終於醒了。
痛醒了。

兩年後，她遇見另一個男人，穩定交往，邁入婚姻。
生了兩個寶貝，她忙碌而幸福。
當年的傷，已經從怵目驚心的見骨深痕，淡化成一抹粉紅。

「那段情傷怎麼走過來的，老實說，我已經不復記憶了。」
「其實說不定，我還得謝謝他，」Lin微笑，眼睛拂過桌上的一張全家福照片，裡頭她和老公孩子，全部笑彎了眼睛：「沒有他的退出，我不會認識我老公，也不可能有兩個這麼棒的孩子。」真的不痛了。
曾經為愛情慟哭的一雙眼睛，如今，因幸福而平靜如水。

那麼，對Lin來說，愛情是什麼呢？「愛情是一個花園，其中一朵花枯萎，妳流淚了，然後，會有另一朵更美麗的，只為妳綻放。」

Lin的定義，很美。

很美。

陰天

2009-09-08T22:46:00.002+08:00

BAD DAY!

a long day of bad news with 1 good news.

i really damn shag now.

everything happened in 1 day.

i broke down just now, i was crying badly.

today went toshiba training.

met up with yuhwang zhongxian ...

training is boring.

after training bused down to linda's house.

the moment i saw her,

she broke out a bad news.

I was like OMG and quickly msged cousin.

went linda's house and i almost break down at her room.

Those freaking anti(s), you all got nothing better to do?

its like 4years ago!

PLEASE 4YEARS AGO!

please f**king grow up.

Jae apologised for those words alr,

why must you all pushed him to the limit?

Now he left and went back to US.

You all happy?!

F**K those anti(s).

watched ur man dvd until 1.30

thn go to city hall to meet jasmine.

went millenia walk, slacked until 4

interview for another job which me and linda didnt get in

but jasmine got in.

All the best, jasmine.

After interview, went ms to slack again.

sent jasmine off at 5plus,

shopped around,

dinnered at mac.

thn trained down to bishan for night class.

another bad new hit me.

Feissy msged me tell me leader got H1N1.

i went so lost, and quickly msg linda and sister.

H1N1 aren't small case and its serious.

DSP suspended their activities.

Im worrying about baby.

Please go hospital and check if you are alright.

and boys, take care of yourself.

halfway through the lesson,

im down with fever flu and sore throat.

whole lesson was really tough for me.

suddenly my korean teacher hit me hard with another news.

he leaving us, and today is the last day of lesson with him.

i didnt have a chance to talk to him properly.

why everything happened in one day?

all are bad news, hitting me more and more hard.

when i almost give up today,

suddenly linda break me a good news.

SS501 coming singapore on december.

news are out!!!!

time to buy tickets, book the car.

do all those stuffs we need to do!

but still, im still very shag.

no mood to type anymore.

need to rest well tmr.

byeeee.

有點失望

2009-09-06T22:29:00.002+08:00

Rather disappointed.

In the end did go KL,

but sister represented me down.

Loads of thing happened,

there is happy and sad things.

called airline, restaurant and police station,

ended up i cant find back my thing.

i don't feel like repeating those stuffs again.

I'm sorry, baby.

but i hope you like the gift i gave <3

met up with girlfriends on friday for kbox.

having fun, but actually i was tearing at a corner.

nvrm i will be better the next time.

But i dont know what else can i do when i go kbox.

Totally dont know those chinese songs.

I should go neorobang, its better thn kbox?!

yesterday met up with sister and sam.

went shopping and dinner.

nice chilling with them,

talking about december stuffs also.

OMO, you can take brother-in-laws but not baby :P

today went grandma house with mommy.

slacked and lalalala...

did nothing much.

went home around 3plus.

now im so tired,

but another good news.

I got a job this weekends.

IT fair for toshiba!

at least some money is earn :)

Trying to get Linda in with me,

hopefully euguene allows.

okay, skype-ing with linda.

and sleeping soon!!!

親愛的(圭鐘)

2009-09-02T16:40:00.002+08:00

Baby Kyu.

Aisshh, why daddy dont allow me to go KL :(

i will be back within 1day,

why cant he just let me go?!

roooar, i really very sad now.

im sorry, baby.

i cant get down to see you and support you.

xiaochu & Jo unnie will send our love to you.

And sorry jie, make you take leave thn in the end i cant go.

now i need to wait for daddy to come back

and try to change his mind :(

Aishhh, also not spending their money,

why must they so bad dont let me go see baby?!

*sad*

Oppa, mianneh!

有夠討厭的

2009-09-01T15:34:00.002+08:00

It's pretty irritating.

AISHHH! im freaking mad now.

I can't get my tickets to kota-kinabalu tmr.

there is only flight to kota-kinabalu on thursday,

but its too late alr.

AHHHHH, i really going crazy now.

why are they releasing the news so late?

What is Manager Oppa thinking?

AISHHH! my kyu!!! *cries*

so near yet so far,

its really driving me crazy.

And the fan meeting at KL is not confirm yet.

Don't tell me it will be confirm tmr and take place on thursday.

how to rush down to KL?!

AISHHHH! OPPA~!

totally no mood to go for my lesson later.

ruin my wonderful day.

OPPA, TAKE CARE AND I TRY TO GO DOWN TO KL.

簡單愛

2009-08-29T10:29:00.001+08:00

Simpliest love.

Blogging in the morning seems to be abit weird,

but im too bored now.

So came up and just blog.

Try to recall what i did this week.

Monday just stayed at home and fold cranes.

Tuesday went aiwee house in the morning for FYP,

thn 'd my first night lesson at 7pm.

I really love my teacher so much,

and he is freaking adorable :)

I can only see him every tuesday, which is so disappointing.

Wendesday stayed at home knitting and folding cranes again.

Thursday met up with bestfriends,

went school to pass something to lecturers.

After that went chinatown and yamcha.

Slacked until 8plus.

Friday met up with linda and linx.

Shopped around PS thn went aston for dinner.

Slacked until 11plus thn trained home with linda.

Peas, lets meet up soon for our korean ktv kays :)

nowadays 'd some quarrel with a girl.

She is just freaking childish and idiot.

Please grow up and act like your age, please.

Me and cher same age as you also never so childish.

If you've the guts to complain to ashley, amy and rosemary,

thn please come to talk to us.

And please note that we didnt bad mouth about you at all.

we just got irritated by your actions and words.

you're freaking over protected to min,

and he doesn't belongs to you.

He belongs to everyone,

and i really pity min to have you such a fan.

I'm not going to talk to you anymore,

cause i'm sure i will just blow up and start scolding you.

有問題

2009-08-24T11:24:00.002+08:00

Big big problem.

I wanted to upload photos,

but blogger doesn't allow me to do so.

what's wrong with blogger nowadays,

cannot upload photos and sometimes can't update.

Now i need to use wretch,

which i've not been touching it for quite long.

Photos are all uploaded here:

http://www.wretch.cc/album/album.php?id=xiaoweez&book=10

Please go see :)

The past 2nights were talking to peas on Skype.

its really nice to talk to them,

especially i get to talk to overseas peas.

Rosemary have a very sweet voice,

and Wen you are so cute.

Try to persuade your parents to let you come over singapore kays.

Feissy said she is okay to go JB to bring you over.

Everyone is looking forward to see you here :)

Actually im surprised i didnt get nervous when i first met them.

instead we were like so close to each other.

I think its after our XOXO session.

U-Know i know.

haha, thats a gossiping session about someone who irritates us.

This 2days have been shooting that someone,

and everyone seems to be enjoying.

Hazel, we helped you snatch min back,

and in the end you want kyu again.

*shake head*

After linda's exam, will need to start working for december concert.

And starting my night class tomorrow :D

im so happy and excited ^^

疲倦

2009-08-23T02:07:00.002+08:00

Sleepy.

Now its 2.05am,

and im closing my eyes alr.

im too tired,

and i need to wake up early later.

Gosh, die....

Skype-ing with peas, since 9plus?

its really fun lah.

today we did loads of thing.

Spazzing, shooting and planning.

Had a rough idea of the december concert.

and a nov celebration with nov babies.

Saeng will be the head :)

alright, i cannot take it anymore. i need to sleep alr.

byee...

2009-08-22T11:31:00.003+08:00

Pea House.

Im too tired to blog when i got home.

Busy rushing the videos out,

so slept at 3plus and woke up at 8plus.

im so tired now.

Anyway, yesterday met up with peas.

A group of nice people i'd met.

Briefly run through what we did yesterday.

Met linda, hazel and linx at tamp station.

took the shuttle bus down to ikea,

met feissy and mai there.

'd our lunch there and start gossiping.

All is about korea stuffs,

like how to speak korean,

where we should go when we get there.

Love feissy loads.

Brenda and Jol came join us after their school.

There is secondary students, poly students, uni student and a teacher.

Awww, what a nice groupie.

but sadly mai and jol need to leave first.

So after that we went to shop around ikea,

and gossiping starts again.

UKnow what i mean. haha
after ikea, shuttle bus back to tamp one.

planted ourselves at J.Co,

and started planning for our december concert.

Need to start working in order to get myself at least 600bucks for december.

Left around 10plus to 11.

i've problem uploading those photos.

maybe i will upload them later :)

사랑해요

2009-08-21T12:47:00.002+08:00

it means, i love you.

loads of things to rattle out, but i just can't.

freak out by those inconsiderate people,

who doesnt know how to respect people's privacy.

Please learn to respect people's privacy,

and if you don't, i'm sure to tell you, nobody will respect you too.

This week is pretty slack week.

And i guess next week will be the same.

So yesterday 'd my interview at GIC.

a pretty short and nice interview,

but i guess i don't stand a chance in there.

Please pray hard that i get a confirmation from the company.

its 1pm now, i need to prepare myself for outing.

Meeting my peas later,

first outing should be a fun one.

With all Mrs Kim and Mrs Heo there,

i guess it will be all laughters.

All unnies and dongsaeng, and im pretty middle child.

Alright, got to go already.

Will update outing's photo tonight :)

尋找回那段愛情

2009-08-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

FIND.

From me, from me too
It is changed sincere heart
I say "What should I do? What should I do?"
It is but a extremely faraway, a very faraway love
It is you whom my heart
Definitely can't give up
I stand here, to find back your laughter
The painful tears from your heart
I am here to catch them all
I make a road that I will definitely not forget, your crystal-clear love
Because we will surely find, our love again
Without you, even without you
Will i be able to live well?
It is always the two of us even in the dream that dream..
Resemblance of you, the times that resembles you
It is the lingering love
That I definitely can't give up
I stand here, to find back your laughter
The painful tears from your heart
I am here to catch them all
I make a road that I will definitely not forget, your crystal-clear love
Because we will surely find, our love again
The empty love, even with the sadness burning in the chest
I will not be able to push you out from my heart
Because the imperfect me is insignificant
Until the falling tears
Submerge every single memories
For you are my love, I will surely find you

這首歌

2009-08-09T22:26:00.002+08:00

This song.

Things really bother me,

but what else can i do?

Nothing, but just face it.

I guess things will be better after next week.

alright, mommy asked me a question just now.

Mommy: Whats wrong with you nowadays?

why are you doing all this kind of things?

first is knitting, next is korean lesson

now you are doing paper crane.

Are you mad or what?
Me: hahaha, you must be happy that im learning things.

Dont be surprise,
cause im learning baking soon from SL.

Mommy: *feels weird*

Daddy: *stares at me*

haha, my parents think that im changing.

from a lazy bum to someone who starts to learn things.

cause i realise if i want to have better life,

i need to work hard.

I can't forever be a lazy bum,

so i took korean lesson.

As for knitting and paper crane,

thats for some personal purpose.

*winks* for my h****

nothing to blog alr.

byeeeee.

揮揮手

2009-08-07T05:21:00.002+08:00

Waving and calling for you.

its 5plus in the morning.

up for assignments again.

last night was too tired to do assignment alr.

since i woke up at 6plus on wednesday morning,

i have not really sleep till last night.

Bestfriend came over on wednesday night to do assignment.

spending a night together is really sthng new.

met teng and aiwee yesterday morning to have breakfast,

thn back to school for lesson.

last night i really cannot take it,

so i just K.O when i got home.

freaking tired and sleepy.

now im still feeling sleepy.

faster finish my assignment

and i want to go sleep again.

byeeeeee.

皆大歡喜

2009-08-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

SO HAPPY!

im so happy now.

haha, actually im feeling very dead alr.

but thanks to feissy,

you are such a great unnie.

feissy told me to sit for SAT in order to get in to SMU.

after knowing more about SAT,

i think its really a good path for me.

so told bestfriend about it,

and she totally agrees with me.

so high chance we are going for this SAT,

and applying for SMU!

COOL, i dont need to go SIM.

next im going down to tuition centre tomorrow after school.

haha, gna register for my night class.

YIPPEE!

nowadays i starts to take up lessons,

learning more things.

first is knitting, now is korean,

next will be baking, preparing korea dishes

and last will be my SAT paper.

hopefully everything goes well for me :)

雙手

2009-08-03T18:17:00.000+08:00

Using my own ability.

Got home slightly early for today,
so came up for a short post.

like what i said on saturday morning,
i went for breakfast at 4am.
thats freaking early,
and i got the first set of breakfast :)
came home and we K.O all the way till 9plus.
woke up, did our work but somehow easily got distracted.
went kovan to get Yoshi for lunch.
she left around 3plus.

went grandma house with mommy in the morning.
thn back home around 3plus,
changed and went out to meet Shirley & Elder sister.
Went Sam's daddy's funeral.
Sam, be strong. Your daddy wouldnt want you to be like that too.
You still got your mom and brother and also us.
Anything just give us a message or call.
We will be there for you, thats what we call bbt's girls right.

after the funeral, went dinner with Elder sister at kovan,
while shirley went to meet her friend.
JieJie really damn good! I love you, JIEJIE.

OKAY NOW IM FREAKING JEALOUS.
FEISSY WENT TO YESTERDAY'S PERSONA CONCERT AND SHE HELD HANDS WITH KYU!
OMG, HOW CAN SHE DO THAT.
I WANT TO HUG KYU, OKAY.
HAHA, BUT I RATHER LET FEISSY HOLD THAT OTHER PEOPLE :P
so feissy told me those girls beside her said "I hate you"
haha, so i told feissy, she should sing 2pm - I hate you to them.
really damn funny! Feissy faster come back, i want to hold your hand. :P
Meet you next week kays. *HUGS*

alright, need to go eat dinner alr. *HUNGRY*

只有你

2009-07-31T23:33:00.000+08:00

only you.

2pm - Only you
only you 니가 아님 날 고칠 수 없어
난다시 웃을 수 가 없어
it's only you my baby it's only you

끝나버린 추억을 혼자 왜 놓지 못하고 붙잡아
지나간 그 사람 보내주고 새로운 삶을 살아
오~ 나도 알아 그래야 한다는 걸 나도 알아

처음 한 달은 믿지 않다가 둘째 달은 계속 울다가
셋째 달은 마음을 다잡고
다른 사람을 만나 오 보려 했어
하지만 나는 웃을 수 없었어

only you 너만이 나를 살릴 수 있어
이 눈물을 멈출 수 있어
그러니 어서 내게 돌아와줘
only you 니가 아님 날 고칠 수 없어
난 다시 웃을 수가 없어
it's only you my baby it's only you

listen,넌 참 아름다웠어 웃을 때면 눈이 부셨어
환한 그 미소에 난 언제나 넋을 잃고 말았지
오~miss you baby 너무나도 난 니가 보고 싶어

아무도 나를 이해 못해 그때 그리고 지금도
내가 왜 이렇게까지 너에게 집착을 하는지
오 이해 못해 하지만 너는 알고 있잖아

only you 너만이 나를 살릴 수 있어
이 눈물을 멈출 수 있어
그러니 어서 내게 돌아와줘
only you 니가 아님 날 고칠 수 없어
난 다시 웃을 수가 없어
it's only you my baby it's only you

Yo 잊어보려고 했지만
암만 노력을 해봐도 자꾸만 너만 찾게 되는 걸
아직도 환한 그 미소가 계속 떠올라
참 한 심하지 어째서 이러지
도무지 잊혀지지가 않아
계속 채워지지가 않는 텅 빈자기가 있어
너만이 채울 수가 있어

oh only you 너만이 나를 살릴 수 있어
(난 죽어가고 있어~)
이 눈물을 멈출 수 있어
그러니 어서 내게 돌아와줘~
only you 니가 아님 날 고칠 수 없어
난 다시 웃을 수가 없어
it's only you my baby it's only you 예~
narration.
잘지내냐고? 잘 못지내 니가 필요해

haha, this song is nice.
the first guy starts singing with that bowl hairstyle.
he is my eyecandy in 2pm. he is freaking funny when driving.
Junsu, hwating!

are you surprise that i keep on posting korean songs,
and translating it to hangul.
haha, because im learning korean now.
my korean language night class starts on 13July.
every thursday :)
woots~ Bestfriend going with me.
im gna learn as much as possible, for the seek of going korea next year.
NEI~ kae, hwating! =)

shhh, im sneaking up to blog.
having overnight study with elaine now.
im feeling sleepy, but i will try my best to keep myself awake,
because i want to have mac breakfast later.
alright, i need to go off for my assignments.
byeeee .... :D

其實我是愛你的

2009-07-29T08:40:00.002+08:00

A Friend's Confession

꽤 오래됐어 내 맘이 조금씩 변하기 시작한지
혼자서 괴로워한지
언제부턴가 니가 볼때마다
너를 울리는 남자가 너무나 미웠어
차라리 내가 널 지키는 게
나을지도 모른다는 생각이
이제는 내가 널 안아주고
사랑해주고 싶단 생각이 들었어
Baby 이제는 내게 와
And Be my lady 너무나 오랫동안
지켜봤어 말없이 서서
안타까운 가슴을 숨기며
친구로 친구로 지내야 한단 이유로
목까지 차올랐던
그 고백을 참아야 했어
하지만 이제는 고백할께
너를 사랑해

내 손을 잡고 나밖에 없다며
나같은 친구를 둔게 정말 큰 축복이라며
변치 말라고 말을 할 때마다
조금씩 자라나는 내 사랑을 눌렀어
차라리 내가 널 지키는 게
나을지도 모른다는 생각이
자꾸만 들어 하지만 참았어
너를 잃어버릴까 두려워 하지만
Baby 이제는 내게 와
And Be my lady 너무나 오랫동안
지켜봤어 말없이 서서
안타까운 가슴을 숨기며
친구로 친구로 지내야 한단 이유로
목까지 차올랐던
그 고백을 참아야 했어
하지만 이제는 고백할께
너를 사랑해

Will not updating much this few weeks,
'cause need to rush assignments.
But thinking that this blog will die,
so i will take out some times to upload some nice songs :)
i will update above song's hangul version when im free to translate.

-EDIT-

alright i spend my lunch time writing out the hangul version of this song.
its not the perfect answer,
but i tried my best to translate over with my book.
pronouce should be okay.

kkoea o lea doea so nea mamee cho koom seen pyon ha gee see chaoo han chee
hoon cha so koee lo ouo han chee
on che boo ton ga hee ga bol ma da
no lool oul lee noon nam cha ga no mou na mee oueeso
cha la lee nea ga nol chee khaee noon ge
naool chee do mo loon da noon seang gagee
ee che noon nea ga nol an a chou go
sa lang hea shou go seep dan seang ganeedoso
baby ee che noon nea ge oa
And be my lady no mou na o leas dongan
chee khayo poaso malom see so so
an tag ga oun ga soomool soum gee myo
chaeen gou lo chaeen gou lo chou nea ya han dan ee you lo
mog gga chee khaaol las don
gee go pean oul khaama ya hea so
ha chee manee che noon go pean hal gge
no lool sa lang hea

hea sonool cham go na paggeom sa myo
na ga toon khaeen gou lool doun ge chong mal khaoon chaoug mogee la pyo
pyon khaee mal la go malool hal ddea da
cho goom seeg cha la na noon nea langool noul lo so
cha la lee nea ga nol chee
naool chee doo loon khaeemoon ge da noon seang gagee
cha ggou man doo lo ha chee man chaama so
no lool eel no mo lee gga doulyo ouee ha chee man
baby ee chea noon nea ge oa
And be my lady no mou na o leas dong an
chee khayo malom see so so
an tag ga oun ga soomool soum gee myo
chaeen gou lo chaeen gou lo chee nea ya han san ee you lo
mog gga chee cha ol las don
goo go meag chaama ya hea so
ha chee man ee che noon go meag hal gge no lool sa lang nea

多一次...♡

2009-07-26T12:41:00.002+08:00

SS501 - Again
Its nice when the rain falls because it crys for me
The memories trace the deep night but falls asleep in the sun rays
Without choice, your name that lingers in my throat is called out
i will turn to look back just once
Baby say again
Baby please say again
I'll turn back to look to say I forgive you
Tell me where you are
Please don't leave me
So I can feel you once more
As the days pass on
Love would probably stop
I didn't know the meaning of pain
Even if I wash away with my tears, I bruise and it gathers
Baby say again
Baby please say again
I'll turn back to look to say I forgive you
Tell me where you are
Please don't leave me
So i can feel you once more
I didn't know the meaning of seperation
Even if I push away my feelings, my tears remain
Baby say again
Baby please say again
I'll turn back to look to say I forgive you
Tell me where you are
Please don't leave me
So i can feel you once more
Please ...

我愛泡菜...★

2009-07-13T21:21:00.002+08:00

I love KIMCHI..

have been days without updating.

busy with my things.

everyday is so pack with oppa things.

9/07

school as usual.

went commonwealth for lunch @ ljs.

thn back to school for interview and lesson.

10/07

actually have school,

but just skipped school because a promised date with cousin.

so met up with her after her paper @ bugis.

went kino to get my magazines which cost me $25.

thn went over to bugis street to shop.

walked over to PS,

went daiso for knitting material.

thn ice monster for durian and mango ice.

walked over to somerset.

shopped awhile thn trained down to hougang.

thn back home.

11/07

met cousin in the after for ice-cream.

but pukka icecream wasnt open,

so went to eat snow ice instead.

bought a cotton yarn for oppa's scarf.

(totally got con by it) damn it.

12/07

went HuiYi's house for niece birthday party.

she is so tiny and 3kg only.

looks so cute, and sleepy soundly there.

slacked around with cousins,

and im freaking short there.

NOTE: im the shortest in the cousin group.

thn after birthday party,

went to compass point to get things done,

but its not done.

so shopped around,

got kimchi again :)

13/07

today school as usual.

nothing much happen, just slacking around with my videos.

korean guys are really adorables.

double S 501, U-Kiss & 2pm.

Hwang bo, wonder girls, jewerly.

U-Kiss Kim Ki Bum looks super cute. haha*

off for videos.

photos are all uploaded at wretch album!

伸出雙手...★

2009-07-08T21:11:00.007+08:00

reaching out for you.

School reopens 3days ago.

assignments are given,

dateline are there for us to complete.

things starts to rush towards me.

life are getting more and more tired.

5/07

actually going out for movie,

but in the end everyone not free.

so its cancelled,

but im so bored and zx wants to play mahjong,

so mahjong at my place at night.

usual players: zx, zw and sl.

yah, in the end we lost so much to zw.

money sucker, keep on sucking our money.

bad friend*

6/07

first day of school for term2

did nothing just purely slacking.

went JP for lunch thn back to school for lesson.

7/07

lesson in the afternoon.

aiwee and tengteng never come school,

so we are kind of slacking.

but i'd sthng important done :)

found my language school,

so bestfriend also interested in it,

and we're going to take korean language in about 2months time.

haha, im so happy.

8/07

wasted my time to go school.

did nothing but just had kfc for lunch.

Doing event now.

Gathering with SG Quainte soon.

getting my dvd soon :)

無名回憶...★

2009-07-05T13:39:00.002+08:00

學習到做人應該快快樂樂的
何必把自己弄得這麼不開心呢
想想看如果我沒有這一切
或許我會更自由更快樂吧

愛情的故事裡的確需要兩個人來完成
但心裡的他不是這麼想的也沒辦法
就只好把男主角改成別人吧
或許另一個他會更好愛情故事會更幸福

一個人很自由最起碼離開時不需要牽掛太多
說離開就離開吧
一切都不需要交代了
我會離開的離開這裡
就是這麼一天我會去一個屬於我的地方
尋找另一個他尋找自己的夢想自己要的生活

如果有一天我離開了,
誰會是最捨不得我的人呢?

不要給我問題想...♡

2009-07-02T20:53:00.002+08:00

stop pouring questions.

Tuesday went back to school for FYP meeting.

yesterday zx, xr, jasmine and zw came over for mahjong.

today i slept at 3am and woke up at 6am for assignment.

finally finished my brcom.

thanks god.

everything coming to an end.

esp my holiday.

i want to spend my last 3days fully.

so anyone wants to ask me out?

I want to watch movie,

eat ice, cake and icecream.

stop pouring me questions,

cause im not sure how much i do.

things may not be as simple as you all think.

not just 2people but 4people.

i have no idea how should i do.

if you can give me suggestion,

feel free to do so.

cause im going crazy for the past few days.

i don't wish all this to continue,

cause school reopening,

and i want to concentrate on my last sem in school.

anyone can help me?

撐不撐得住...★

2009-06-28T20:47:00.003+08:00

can i take it?

1week without updating.

seriously loads of things happen.

it will be a long post.

22/06

dearest cousin came over to study with me.

managed to do some fyp stuffs,

and she left around 5plus.

back at around 7plus,

slacked and sent her off at 9plus.

23/06

met Huijing and trained down to woodland.

we took the wrong bus and went to checkpoint.

haha, damn embarrasing.

took the correct bus to aiwee's place.

slacked, thn went over to shop and save to buy the ingredients.

tengteng prepared pasta for us :)

after lunch, did Brcom assignment.

went home around 6plus.

24/06

met Huijing thn bused down to changi airport to meet aiwee and teng.

strolled around the airport,
thn trained down to ps for lunch.

after lunch, shopped around thn trained down to city hall.

went to take flyer,

and i almost die there.

seriously, i have fear in height,

so i was like holding on to ppl's hand when i stood up.
scary* after flyer, went dinner

thn home sweet home.

25/06

met up with primary school cliques.

so zx and zw came over to fetch me.

1car and 1bike = speeding~!

haha, so went TP to fetch jasmine.

after that went ikea and gaint for foods..

received stanley's call,

so went amk to fetch him,

thn down to kovan.

the guys played bball at kovan melody,

and i met vincent.

he actually know stanley and ahchow.

Omg, such a small world*

after the match, went chomp chomp for dinner.

thn went to pick up xuan ren,

thn down to seletar dam.

unfortunately my mom called me,

so zx 'd to send me home.

something happened, so i took cab home.

overall im happy hanging out with my cliques.

today went for a haircut,

and guess what.
after my haircut, my weight dropped 1kg.

thats how heavy my hair can be.

so i like my new hairstyle. so light*

Vic, Jasmine, Sheuelee, Zhewei, Stanley, Guansan

you people are my happy pills.

loads of laughters when im with you all.

thanks for this 9years friendship.

it will continue forever and ever.

會更好...★

2009-06-21T00:10:00.002+08:00

Getting better and better.

Have been out this few days.

kept on spending money like nobody business.

i can't live this life anymore,

need to have a stop to it.

if not my bank will be zero,

and say good bye to my oversea college.

time for some updates.

so thursday went back to school for fyp meeting,

after meeting, went to PP with bestfriends.

shopped around, thn bused home.

friday went down to JP for PT's lunch.

at zhou's kitchen,

the food aren't bad,

but not really suits me, so i guess i will not go back.

after lunch, went shopping with bestfriends.

bought a top,
thn trained down to novena.
planted ourselves at han's,

had muffins and orange juices.

trained home around 6plus.

today met cliques for dinner at vivo.

'd sushi tei, and it really cost alot.

we'd around 200plus.

after dinner, went to shop around,

thn cliques went to cathay for movie,

while i trained back to kovan to meet zx and ahbi.

'd prata at the prata shop.

today i bought my eyelash curl, glue and mask.

spent too much alr.

tomorrow going shopping with mommy again.

gosh, money money, why are you leaving me?

had some talk with zx just now.

thought of alot things,

things are making me recall everything about you.

I don't know how to say about it,

but i do feel weird when i heard your name.

my heart do aches when your pictures appear inside my laptop.

i do weep when i saw your message inside my phone.

my soul do vanish when i miss you.

i've no idea why im doing all this.

aren't i suppose to say goodbye to you alr?
how long more are you pestering me?

another 1year? 2years? or forever?

please leave me alone,

i need to learn to be strong.
i need to learn to live without you.

i need to learn to stand without your support.

i need to learn to smile without your hug.

i need to learn to go on with my life without you beside me.

please, i can be strong and brave,

only if you leave me,

only if you are deleted from my memory.

第九天...♡

2009-06-17T21:49:00.002+08:00

ninth day.

busy busy busy.

so busy with my love.

haha, 9days already.

i want it to be so long so long,

1year, 2years 3years ... ^.^ v

monday went out with cousin.

'd been craving for sushi and mang guo bing

so went to have them all on monday.

yummy*

thn went down to heeren's hmv.

wanted to get our CDs,

but hmv don't have my Double S 501 and cousin's 2pm.

(there's 2am album but no 2pm) haha

mine is have years ago, but not the latest.

really disappointed so trained back home.

YoungSaeng, you are so adorable.

haha, i guess you are sick of people saying you adorable.

you want people to say you are suave and charming,

so now, i will tell you

"HeoYoungSaeng, you are suave and charming.

You're the prince. :)"

haha happy with it? ^.^

baby, ly.

好愛好愛你...♡

2009-06-12T22:55:00.002+08:00

Show me your love.

12June a day to remember for the rest of my life.

1year anniversary.

was talking to elder sister during noon,

was recalling what we did 1 year ago at lunar.

recalled i held 寶貝's hand.

阿緯,敖犬and小煜talked to me.

really a day to remember :)

anyway today oldies came over to my place.

'd mahjong,

and i won about 10bucks.

they left around 5.30.

so intended to go IT fair with cliques to get my harddisk,

but my brother came back with a 500GD harddisk

and he threw it on my bed :)

so now its inside my drawer, haha.

finally a harddisk to put all my videos.

feeling sick,

so 'd my flu pills 2hours ago.

now im feeling damn sleepy.

off to bed,

and kyujong, i miss you ♡

絕不後悔...♡

2009-06-10T22:27:00.004+08:00

Let's not regret but FIGHT.

things keep on bugging me.

i have no idea why,

but i guess thats what i need to go through.

exhausted, vex, heart-breaking.

im really feel all this NOW.

i need to worry about my family,
work hard for future,

disappointed by partner.

"I'm your man."

it sounds so sweet...

"My Girl"

it sounds so touching...

"In your smile."

it sounds so cute...

"Always and forever."

it sounds so far...

"Promise to promise."

it sounds so real...

"Believe in love."

it sounds so genuine...

"I want you."

it sounds so deep...

"Stand by me."

it sounds so dreamy...

but i love listening to it.

Cause all of them has your voice in it :)

김규종, 사랑해요.

最珍惜的這兩天...★

2009-06-06T22:03:00.002+08:00

cherish these two days.

finally im having my holidays alr.

yes, 1month of resting

but there's still assignments to rush.

tiring~!

yesterday was a tiring day.

was suppose to reach school at 1pm for presentation.

but on my way to school,

i realised i forgot to bring my donation card.

so took the train back to kovan,

ran home to take the card thn cabbed down to school.

it cost 15bucks to reach school.

damn bloody expensive man :/

'd presentation thn trained home.

oldies msged me,

so that means we're having mahjong.

So yeaps, mahjong at my house last night.

after a few times of losing in the previous mahjong session,

i finally won money; about 13buck plus :)

oldies left around 11plus.

today, vic never work so went kbox.

woohoo~ nice kbox with oldies.

'd loads of fun there.

singing, laughing~

oldies lets meet up next week again for mahjong kays :)

Okay, im feeling damn happy now.

watching 八度空間 now,

cause bbt is going to perform soon.

they're now at malaysia :/

feeling sad cause we're so near yet so far.

寶貝我好想你哦~

andy哥你好帥哦! haha

other thn my bbt,

my double S501 is coming singapore on dec.

OMG!!! kim hyun joong~ triple S~

hopefully by that time i still like kim hyun joong,

so i can go to their asia tour concert.

haha, and cousin said she willing to go with me.

love you loads cousin,

if nichkun come singapore, i sure go with you.

haha, and if we really can lets take the same flight with double S 501

go korea together :)

haha, im a happy girl now....

(photos will be upload soon)

大成功...★

2009-06-02T21:00:00.005+08:00

big round of applause.

finally the first presentation to the company is over.

alright we were like fighting inside the room,

cause we're damn nervous.

i was freaking nervous that i can't control my own speech,

and my Q-Card dropped on the floor.

its really damn embarrassing.

others were also nervous,

all of us love to "erm".

haha its really damn funny.

and i first time inside a board room.

can you imagine the chairman is inside with us,

gosh, its really scary.

big long table with serious atmosphere.

but, its all over.

now i left an interview on thursday

and another presentation with supervisor next week.

holiday and i need to go back school for presentation.

hate that man.

so photos time :)

一次有一次...♡

2009-06-01T21:51:00.002+08:00

again and again.

its monday again,

but im looking for this week,

cause its last week of this term

and i will be having holiday for about 4weeks.

*smiles* i want to spend my time properly.

'd a rehearse with lincoln in the morning.

thn lesson until 3plus.

homed around 5plus.

and im rushing all my things now.

Finished AJP assignment,

just finished writing my script for tmr's presentation,

and need to prepare for tmr's quiz.

damn pack week for me.

tmr will be a presentation with client,

and its down at their chinatow office.

still wondering anyone of us know how to go there.

hopefully we dont get lost,

as heels are hurting my foot too.

formal wear can be damn killing with that hot weather.

having icecream party tmr.

haha, lets have icecream.

and mr boyfriend is at hawaii now.

gosh, miss him so much.

mr boyfriend is kim hyun joong. *hot*

baby is going malaysia this weekend,

and i want to go find him.

but i guess i can't cause i have my event up. :)

i will miss this chance,

and hope to see you end of the year, baby.

親愛的...♡

2009-05-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

mr boyfriend.

need to update something :)

yesterday went back school for rehearse and ajp.

so i guess AJP should be okay alr.

left some part not sure, need to consult teacher.

so after school, went sembawang with teng and aiwee.

'd aston at sembawang shopping center.

i really got addicted to aston man :/

haha, its really nice.

shopped around the shopping center until 9

thn trained home.

i dislike circle line.

walk damn far from red line to it. :(
roooar....

tmr will go for a hair cut

will update new photos soon at my album :)

going chinatown to get my shoe too...

even though i just got 1 just now.

haha i want to buy alot of shoe and heels :)

cause im getting a shoe cabin in my room just for my own shoes..

haha, im going crazy.

說實話我還真的放不下你

看著你跟白白這麼甜蜜

我心里還是有點酸

但我知道我不該有這樣的感覺

我們是兩個世界的人

沒辦法在一起

我會好好愛我的親愛的

裕明, 你要開心幸福哦

我會幸福的 :)

等待...★

2009-05-28T22:16:00.004+08:00

Waiting for you.

FYP first presentation will be next tuesday with the client

and the following wednesday with the teachers.

its really bad to have 2 presentations while others have 1.

saying the same things for 2 times can kill me,

and that mental nervous can really makes me feel dead.

Rushing advance java programming assignment now.

tmr will be presentation rehearse with mates,

saturday maybe meeting elder sister up,

thn sunday might go for a haircut.

people around has been saying my hair is too long,

so i guess i need to go trim my hair :)

mr boyfriend looks so cute in the photos.

and im trying to save money to go korea with cousin.

its either end of this year which i dont think i can,

or next year :)

i want to go taiwan and korea ~!

不能不...♡

2009-05-27T21:26:00.003+08:00

you can't do this.

裕明, 你不可以不開心

你一定要開心

雖然我跟你已經過去了

但我還是很在乎你這個朋友

你不能不開心

雖然白白最近跟她的前男友很好

但是我猜她還是很愛你的

你一定要幸福

因為你的幸福是我放棄自己的

要開心如果有甚麼事就跟我說

我們是朋友不是嗎

開心點哦 :)

笑著說你太殘忍了...♡

2009-05-25T21:39:00.002+08:00

You're too cruel.

few days without updating,

loads of things to update.

last thursday just school day,

went tiong's burger king for lunch

thn back to school for lesson.

friday went back school to rush FYP's report.

from 9 to 6plus is really tiring.

saturday met teng in the morning for breakfast,

thn back to my place to do AJP assignment.

cooked maggie for lunch, haha

thn she left around 5.

sunday went to grandma house.

today went chinatown after school.

yum cha :)

ate so much that bestfriends want to vomit.

but i guess the cha shao shu is nice.

home around 6plus.

today's weather is horrible hot,

daddy and me got headache because of it.

cant take heat cause its really killing.

okay, nowadays learning korean.

haha i didnt know korean can be so fun.

Annyeong-haseyo :)

Mannaseo ban-gapsseumnida. Jeoneun Kay-rago haeyo

당신은 너무 잔인하다
저가 착수하게 하십시오

같은 장소에서 즐거운 그녀와 당신

실제로 I 슬픈 생활을 시킨다

그러나 I 좋은 혐오 당신을 실제로 사랑하는 당신

진짜로 대단히 풍부하다 당신을 생각하는 밝은 I는

당신은 알고 있다

回到沒遇見你的日子...♡

2009-05-20T20:29:00.003+08:00

back to those old days.

woots, im bored & sick.

seriously having headache so frequently.

panadols seems to be my bestfriend.

now i love to talk crap to waste my time out.

alright class for this week is still okay.

nothing much happen,

so nothing much to say.

thanks vic,

i guess im feeling better now.
裕明, 我想這是我最後一次為你難過了
我想了想白白很需要你

她很愛你我想她愛你比我多很多

或許我大概是習慣你在我身旁

而這不是愛情吧

如果還有可能的話

我還是願意做你的朋友的

但現在我會回到一個月前

回到我還沒遇見你的日子

我希望自己可以開心的過日子

你也一樣要幸福快樂

我會祝福你們的

裕明再見了....

不想...★

2009-05-18T22:19:00.003+08:00

stop thinking, stop praying.

drafted those previous posts,

im going crazy, going mad soon.

im surprised i actually kept everything to myself.

things may look normal,

but im not normal inside.

i tried to control my tears when im out,

but sometimes somethings will bring up everything.

i'll be happy soon. - vic

不是我...❤

2009-05-17T22:24:00.002+08:00

its not me, but her.

today went shopping with mommy,

and we bought alot of things.

'd spaghatti twice for today and kfc

haha, sounds like pig.

i just bought a heels and pink mouse.

will go shopping again next week with mommy.

我後悔了

後悔沒聽老姊的話

我不應該喜歡你的

跟不應該陷下去

我難過的是為甚麼事實卻是這麼傷

你為甚麼要這樣對我

"最愛親愛的"

難道你不知道我看了心裡是多難受嗎

即使我把你封鎖了

我還是看得到你的

但是你卻要這樣傷害我

我快瘋了

一個人時我總是會哭

原本以為你跟他會不一樣

但結果卻是一樣的

難道我就真的不該踏入感情嗎

一個人好好的過....

假裝...♡

2009-05-16T20:14:00.002+08:00

Pretend to be one.

im not in a great mood this few days.

forget about it, i don't wish to explain

cause no-one knows except them.

ytd tengteng came over to my place to do assignments.

its really nice to have ppl doing work with me,

at least i wouldnt feel so bored.

we ate alot of things,

and had dinner at my house

before sending her off to meet her bfriend.

i love you, tengteng :)

so today my cliques dated me for lunch

belated celebration of my birthday.

actually i really hate to go out,

looking at others.

i need to put on fake smiles,

talk as if there's nothing happen.

be happy when im not,

and its simply tiring to put on a mask.

but well, i guess is a nice one to sit down and talk.

'd aston at cathay,

and i really love their potato salad.

its yummy :)

will date oldies down one day.

i know vicky loves it :D

photos will be uploaded when im free.

我很抱歉如果造成甚麼麻煩

我也沒說要跟妳搶他

他始終是妳的

我也沒權力跟妳搶

但請妳搞清楚

是他從頭到尾沒說他有女朋友

所以我也自然而然的跟他

現在我知道妳是他的女朋友了

我也沒有再跟他連絡了

我選擇離開了不再糾纏了

麻煩妳明白這一切

不是我的錯好嗎

不過我還是祝福你們

他是一個很棒的男朋友

好好珍惜彼此吧...

祝我生日快樂...★

2009-05-12T21:27:00.007+08:00

happy birthday.

today is 12May which means its stanley and my birthday.

haha, what a nice day.

and its my lunar birthday too.

its like after 19years.

had 雞蛋麵線 in the morning.

'd two wonderful presents from girls.

thanks laurene, xiuting and elly for the present.

i really like it alot :)

and a big thanks to bestfriends.

the present you girls gave me also very nice.

im surprise to see all of us having the same present.

after school met up with twofour guys.

have been quite some times not seeing them,

nice feeling to see them. :)

went PS ice monster for mango ice.

a big list of people to thanks.

STARTING FROM SMS:

AndyCousin

Stanley (happy birthday to you too)

Jasmine

Peiyin

ElaineCousin

Sheuelee

Cordelar

weekheng

Vicky

leonard

FROM MSN:

Terence

Junyi

tengteng

zijin

Sammatha

xuanren

laurene

xiuting

FROM FACEBOOK:

JeannieChua

Ryan

Desmond

FROM FACE TO FACE:

mommy

huijing

rentro

simon

abu

zhongxian

hongen

those who i missed out,

i still want to thanks you alot.

even though im not really happy for this year,

but still im touch for everything you all gave me.

photos. haha and i took alot of photos today.

my 雞蛋麵線

im 19 alr.

and i still want to be young

frm Laurene, xiuting and elly

i love this blingbling name =) thanks.
frm bestfriends. the behind
the front with my picture.
the back part of all 4

the front part of all 4

puzzle joined.

let all this be a memory of us in poly.

i love you girls so much.

提前慶祝...★

2009-05-09T22:31:00.005+08:00

advance celebration.

went out with bestfriends yesterday.

'd seoul gardens again,

and this time im the one craving for it.

haha, miss the cakes and icecreams.

so i'd them yesterday =)

im a happy girl now.

after lunch, went shopping
but we didnt buy alot of things.

most of the time is just window shopping.

shopped until 6plus thn trained home.

today went out with laine.

she gave me a sushi treat for my birthday.

thanks dearest =)
after sushi, went PS for mango ice.

thn went shopping around town.

left around 3plus.

tmr will be out to buy my heels for presentation.

hopefully i can get the one i want for so long. =)

happy vesak day,

and happy advance mothers' day :)

不想了...★

2009-05-07T22:07:00.002+08:00

don't bother me much.

school for today is so long and tiring.

had fyp in the morning,

and i was like all the way chatting with char.

haha, rubbish talker =)

went tiongbahru for lunch,

and we'd aljisan again.

haha, lovers of ramen.

trained back to school for practical.

i did my practical kays,

but i didn't finish it. haha

on the way home, went to meet laine.

went home, bathed, dinnered,

thn went basketball match again.

tagawa against plcc and obviously tagawa won.

homed around 8plus.

now im moulding alr =/

char, you're really a fierce but lovely friend.

goodluck for your report,

and you will get good results =)

球賽 ★

2009-05-05T22:04:00.002+08:00

basketball.

today lesson starts in the afternoon.

so went school as usual,

and that stupid checking of admin card is wasting time.

now i need my admin/ez-link card to get into my school,

and have temperature taking twice a day.

haha, my temperature seems to be high in the afternoon =)

Suppose to end lesson at 6,

everyone left bfore 6.

the classroom seems to be so scary.

was about to pack our bags and go home,

personal tutor came. yawns*

went home after that.

cutest cousin called me up,

went to meet her up, watched basketball match.

have been like years ever since i last watch basketball match.

haha, so i was there dreaming.

anyway my pay was banked in =)

woots i have money to shopping this week.

i can't believe i left 1week

and im nighteen. gosh

im freaking old now.

i don't want to be that old~ no!

我很想你 ♡

2009-05-04T20:50:00.005+08:00

yes imy.

its monday again, and having monday blues.

yawn* boring monday doing boring things.

tomorrow will have that stupid temperature taking.
gosh, really make me think of SARS period sia.

today is 4May and 8more days to my birthday =)

i want to do so many things within this few days,

my last few days of eighteen.

and elder sister is going taiwan on the next day.

she is dumping me in singapore

when she can go taiwan and see 寶貝.

haha, but she says she will tell 寶貝its my birthday,

and 寶貝please wish me happy birthday =).

haha i will be damn happy.

my pet society's room =)

those gift are given by my dearest teng, aiwee &Jing

我知道

2009-05-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

I miss you.

i know im silly.
i know im navie.
i know im useless.
i can't control myself but crying.
i really miss you badly.
i never thought of leaving you one day.
i will never have you by my side protecting me.
i will never have any chance to hold your hands.
i choose to keep all this to myself,
cause i don't wish that you'll feel guilty for hurting.
i promise you, i'll live better
and never let those tears i shed be a waste.

do you know i miss you alot?

墨西哥流感 ♡

2009-05-01T22:29:00.001+08:00

Swine flu.

that stupid swine flu make me waste 15bucks buying thermometers.

why must we bring thermometer to school?

my damn bag is so heavy alr,

and now i still need to bring thermometer to school.

makes me feel like going back to secondary school,

when SARS period, everyday taking temperature.

haha, miss those days too. when im young. =)

handsome char, you will get your freedom soon.

goodluck for your final exams,

and get into a good university =)

you will always be the most handsome char i know.

你愛怎樣就怎樣

2009-04-29T22:29:00.002+08:00

Only if you are happy.

tmr will be last day of school for this week.

okay time pass super fast

and i need to hand in my report for my fyp soon.

gosh, its freaking fast man.

24hours aren't long enough for me now.

i really want to have a nice sleep,

a nice talk with friends,

a nice hangout with love ones,

a nice shopping with oldies,

a nice birthday for this year,

a nice birthday wish,

a nice ipod nano,

a nice hard-disk,

a nice holiday with sisters,

a nice overseas with baby ...

All i need is money ...

And my poor pay is not here yet,

its freaking long man.

my birthday is coming soon,

but I have no idea will i be happy on that day.

nothing is making me happy for now.

Smile for the seek of smiling,

wake up for the seek of waking up,

go school for the seek of going school,

doing everything for the seek of my poor life.

Enough of everything!

i cried badly just now,

and i can't control myself.

i worked so hard but in the end i got nothing in return.

Friends?! are they really there for me forever?

i guess only my oldies are there for me,

no-one else are there.

just a passerby i guess.

IM NOT HAPPY NOW.

我瘦不夠

2009-04-26T23:20:00.003+08:00

Baby, really not enough.

Alright went grandma house today.

purely just slacking and chatting with relatives.

3generations together man =)

grandma i love you.

okay, in a good mood today.

just now had a weighing session at grandma house,

and i lost 2kg.

yes baby, i lost weight =D

3kg to go and my 45kg will be my aim.

people asked me how i slim down.

so i guess i will say i control my diet.

if i want to have a heavy lunch, i will skip my breakfast and dinner.

otherwise if im having dinner,

i will had that little rice in my bowl and all i eat is vegetables.

and eat fruit when im hungry =)

haha im a happy girl now.

char, i guess you are a really nice friend.

love talking to you and i guess you are a hunk.

haha at least you got that school hunk thingy =)

好不習慣

2009-04-24T14:23:00.002+08:00

Gotta get used to it, baby.

Yipppee, today is friday which means i will have my weekend tmr.

haha im so into holidays that i now dont like school.

this week is purely just schooling without lesson.

its really boring going school doing my fyp,

and its like we still not very sure what to do.

Spending 4to5hours there staring at my laptop,

either playing games or watching videos.

Wasting time right, cause i can sleep 4to5more hours.

But need to get start with fyp soon,

or else it will be a gone case for me again.

Tuesday went school in the afternoon,

lesson from 1 to 6pm.

nothing much happen on that day.

Wednesday went school early in the morning,

intended to do our fyp, but in the end playing and watching videos.

had subway for brunch.

its really cool to have subway in school =)

Thursday lesson at 8 until 1pm,

2hours break so trained down to tiong for lunch.

thn trained back to school for lesson until 5pm.

Friday will be a holiday for me.

from now onwards, i will only have school from mon to thurs.

fri to sun will be my rest and assignments day.

perhaps babe can ask me out on fri :)

alright, off to take a short nap, feeling sleepy.

好愛好愛你

2009-04-20T20:49:00.000+08:00

i love you more thn you do.

today is the first day of school.

i guess its still very boring.

not really having any lesson.

had a meeting with company's boss in the morning

thn after meeting, trained down to tiong for lunch.

had ramen for lunch =)

after lunch went back to school for lesson.

ended early, thn trained down to hougang to meet girl.

haha bought a top and a shoe.

im so addicted in shopping man.

keep on buying things =/

im feeling tired and sleepy,

guess will sleep early.

goodnight.

好不捨哦

2009-04-19T21:31:00.004+08:00

don't bear to leave.

school reopens tomorrow man.

im dragging myself to face it.

hopefully i will not be that bored in school.

Princess lolly is so cute =)

love her so much. she looks fat =/

haha 寶貝said he trying to control her diet.

but 寶貝still need to let her eat lah.

she looks good in chubby way :D

got some photos of lolly again.

lolly is shaking hand =)

everyone adores her.
see how small is she.
she looks 笨笨的 but she knows everything.

愛屋及烏

2009-04-16T20:37:00.005+08:00

LOLLY~

3more days and i need to get back to school.

going back to a stress life again.

and i miss 寶貝 so much.

wonder what is he doing now.

寶貝, remember to rest when you're free kays.

寶貝 got a new member to his house.

and that member is LOLLY~

LOLLY is super cute and looks like a bear.

haha, i love look at LOLLY~! makes me smile.

LOLLY記得你的爹地很愛你哦

haha 寶貝love LOLLY alot.

this is LOLLY~ cute right.

LOLLY & 寶貝 =) and LOLLY is looking at the camera.

老大的作文

2009-04-16T20:32:00.002+08:00

LOVE STORY.

這是黑人老大在節目上寫的一篇作文
我個人看了　直接落淚　因為太感人了
所以就上來跟大家分享

一對退休的老夫妻戀愛了三十年育有一女
長年旅居美國大概三年才回來台灣一次
這對老夫妻一直過著有如年輕情侶般的生活
每天爬山運動整理自己美麗的花園一起在陽台閱讀
晚上九在附近的公園散散步每天都在戀愛令人羨慕不已
在某天的夜裡月光從窗簾的細縫中穿了進來射在老伴的側臉
當這位老教授正在感恩老天賜給他如此美麗賢淑的妻子時
他的右手突然感到一陣奇怪的感覺原是他的太太尿床了
在這天之後老教授就再也叫不醒他那美麗的妻子了
在告別式上他的學生街坊都叫他節哀順變不要想太多不要難過
而他就像退休前在課堂上教導學生般那樣沉穩的回應說謝謝大家來
但老教授早有自己的規劃了
他一如往常的做著自己正常的作息
一邊把自己喜歡的書以及盆栽分送給鄰居街坊
但殊不知他的計畫已經展開了
在書房昏暗的檯燈照在桌上的藥和水杯
陪伴教授的只剩孤單和寂寞
他正要把藥放進嘴裡的那個時候電話突然響起是在美國的女兒打來的
她說爸我好想你我在美國的機場我要上飛機了我要回來陪你
這時候老教授突然清醒看著水杯及藥丸
但眼前卻浮現了老伴溫柔慈祥的臉說著為我好好活著我好愛你
老教授的眼淚再也當不住原來他需要的只是一種簡單被愛的感覺

脫胎換骨

2009-04-14T21:44:00.003+08:00

makeover.

how long more should i wait?

how long more should i give in?

how long more should i let go?

how am i suppose to be brave when you hurt me more than once?

how am i suppose to smile when my heart is breaking?

how am i suppose to let you go when i still love you?

how am i suppose to release my hand when your scent is still on my hand?

how am i suppose to love you again....

started to be emo-licious again.

yayayaya, lousy mood now.

guess i will be better tomorrow.

having mahjong session with oldies tomorrow =)

anyway, i got a new haircut.

and i guess i will go for a shorter hair next month.

just wait and see hahahaha

okay, i got my school bag today.

new beginning for me. :D

off to channel v. byebye

a photo of me with my new hair cut =)

別離開...

2009-04-13T23:04:00.003+08:00

Don't go away.

looking through your eyes

there's nothing to hide

and you're no longer mine

how could i survive when you say goodbye

why do birds still fly up high?

can't stop the tears from falling

we used to be so fine

when you walked into my life

i tried to reach out for you just to be with you

my heart is breaking

don't don't go away

baby, don't you know i miss you so

don't don't go away

i've never been on my own before

can't you hear me just take me with you

so don't don't go away

don't don't go away

baby, don't you know i miss you so

don't don't go away

i've never been on my own before

so won't you feel my heart beats once more

照片 Part2

2009-04-11T22:03:00.005+08:00

sheuelee*

jasmine*

jasmine&sheuelee*

guansan*

mahjong players*

out of boredom

stanley

have no idea why stanley and guansan so high

zixin*

girls power

zixin,sheuelee&jasmine*

sheuelee*

zixin&jasmine*

they can be so high & funny*

看不出的快樂

2009-04-11T13:10:00.002+08:00

hiding away from crowds.

im so into blogging this few days.

cause im freaking bored in the morning.

anyway yesterday had another mahjong session with love ones.

met xuan ren and sheuelee first.

accompanied sheuelee to have her dinner,

thn went to meet the rest of them.

bused down to zhewei house.

sheuelee, zx, zhewei and stanley played mahjong,

xuanren,guansan,jasmine and me watched tv.

slacked until 11plus thn bused down to kovan.

Actually having supper, but my f*** government called and nagged.

so i went home first.

im still considering should i go out later.

and im having my hair cut tmr.

here i go bangs =]

photos will be uploaded either later or tongiht=D

♡ 大丈夫 ♡

2009-04-09T12:24:00.003+08:00

i need a real man.

就覺得毫無聊哦

所以就上來說說有甚麼新專輯吧

基本上我要推薦的這張專輯

很好聽, mv很酷, 舞風也很不一樣

這個歌手又再次突破自己了

沒錯這位歌手就是Jolin蔡依林了

Jolin推出新作品了 *花蝴蝶*

有舞曲也有抒情歌

各人是很喜歡裡頭的三首歌

大丈夫, 花蝴蝶跟妥協

大丈夫跟花蝴蝶算是舞曲吧

舞蹈很酷也包含了fortte

大家看了mv就會知道了

至於妥協這首歌是抒情歌

mv是跟小天一起的哦很好看

所以大家多多支持吧 =]

大丈夫mv:

花蝴蝶mv:

花蝴蝶dance mv:

妥協mv:

迷你蛇

2009-04-08T23:14:00.003+08:00

tiny little snake.

im feeling freaking bored now.

staring at my laptop, surfing net, listening to songs.

wasting my night just like this.

boring night~!

(looks blur cause i lazy to use my camera to transfer)

anyway, i got my tiny little snake on my finger alr.

haha, its like finally on.

i love it so much, and looks so cute.

haha small and cute or i can say it doesn't look like a snake :b

but its a snake. =]

my new style, little snake =DD

不知道

2009-04-07T23:51:00.002+08:00

don't really understand why.

我不知道為甚麼會有人這麼想

難道你不知道這樣是會更傷害我嗎

你應該比誰還要清楚

這麼做是錯的是會給人帶來困擾

拜託你好嗎成熟一點好嗎

不要再讓我這麼煩了

到最後不是我受傷吧

或許是兩敗俱傷所以你最好是想想吧

這三天

2009-04-06T14:58:00.002+08:00

joyful moments.

three fun days with my love ones.

3April, went out with elder sister and sam.

caught LOVE at cine,

and i really got to say this movie damn nice.

i cried, i laughed, and i stunned.

haha, thats what i did in the cinema.

so after movie, planted ourselves down at burgerking for dinner.

slacked until ten plus thn headed home.

4April, received zx's msg saying there's a mahjong session.

so met up my girls at hougang mall in the evening.

accompanied sl for dinner at mac while waiting for the rest to reach.

dear peeps are: jasmine, zx, xuanren, stanley, zw and guansan.

finally our dear zx came at 7plus,

so bused down to her house.

started our mahjong, while guansan and zx playing maple.

haha, intended to go home around 11plus,

but in the end we stayed over at zx's house.

so went 24-hours prata shop at 12am for supper.

thn went mac to slack while waiting for jervis to come.

suppose to have a nice chit-chatting session,

but in the end we were drinking outside mac.

chivas plus beer taste good =)

all the way until 5plus, thn walked back to zx's house for mahjong again.

a few rounds, and we gathered together again.

finally had our chit-chatting.

all kinds of memories started to flow back,

like what we did during our primary school,

what food we love the most,

which teacher did what stupid things,

who got bullied ....

things can be so sweet as we slowly recalling them.

left at around 9, went over to kovan to get family's breakfast.

got home, bathed, breakfasted and i went out again.

accompanied mommy to bench road to buy daddy's stuffs,

thn trained down to grandma's house.

reached home around 6plus,

and i freaking shagged.

36hours without sleep can be so shagged.

thanks love ones for such a wonderful moments.

my girls meet you girls later =)

and photos are all below.

照片

2009-04-06T14:40:00.006+08:00

photos

on our way to zx's house

slacking outside mac. and its 3am in the morning

back to zx's house

jervis told you not to drink

one big family

花蝴蝶

2009-04-01T21:10:00.005+08:00

flowery butterfly.

i guess my blogspot is really dying.

haha, super long never update alr.

but my wretch will update very frequently,

so peeps can go over there and take a look =)

so met up with primary school mates on last saturday.

went to watch mall cop at cine,

thn the guys dinner-ed at burger king.

after that trained down to ClarkeQuay.

settled down at forbidden city =D

slacked awhile thn went home with xuan ren.

ever since saturday, i stayed at home till now.

muahahaha, 3more days to go =)

alright, i guess i should update those photos took last week.

group photo

xuanren
vic

stanley with that irrtating finger

girls at forbidden city

gays

zhewei

looks like we are drunk. haha

一關又一關 ♡

2009-03-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

life is just like a rollercoaster.

alright, have been rotting at home for the past few days.

don't wish to see anybody now,

unless relatives.

if i don't reply you, don't come looking for me

cause i really dont want to interact with anyone now.

i'm feeling tired, i don't wish to face anyone.

sorry peeps.

anyway, just now listening to hitfm.

i'm feeling high now, muahahaha.

cause i finally get to hear my 寶寶s' voice.

its damn nice to hear their voice on air =)

especially 傑寶寶, you're super duper cute.

haha, still want to go 墊下巴~ 可愛*

next will be my 帥哥煜寶寶, i miss you badly.

miss your voices, miss your smiles,

miss your singing, miss your cold jokes.

no matter what, remember you still got millions of fans here =)

我們都很愛你哦*

the rest of my 寶寶, miss you guys badly.

see you guys end of year =)

留過淚 ❤

2009-03-22T23:08:00.004+08:00

nobody knows that heartbreaking moment.

ytd met up with baobei,

went cine to get our balloons.

had dinner together thn sent niu and peiwen off.

so elder sister, sam, shirley and me went city hall.

chilled out at tcc was fun.

haha had so much talk with them.

fun talking session with them =)

maybe movie session with them on 3 april.

today woke up with fever and serious flu.

took medicine, rest until 2plus.

prepared myself thn bused down to kallang to watch match.

haha that journey can be so lonely,
but well i guess i need to learn to be independent.

so watched until 6plus,

thn miss tham sent us to the bus stop.

intended to take bus home with yongkiat,

but abondoned him a half way. =)

now im feeling so sick.

flu can really kill me =/

okay, shall let the photos talk now.

with baobei

elder sister
at tcc

with niu

with peiwen

with elder sister and niu

with shirley

with fiona

with mr lee

This love will last

THE MEANING OF TWO-TIMER.

決定

眼淚

很受傷

Foolish couple

한곡

美麗的回憶

2010

너 때문에

FT ISLAND!

SS501

那愛我的你

情侶

累了就休息吧

6:45AM

怎麼了

我會放你走的

我很想念你

累爆了

最後一天

頭好痛

你的聲音

是真還是假

닥조림

照片~

失蹤了?!

好忙哦!!

我真的很累 但又能怎樣呢

照片

PARTY嘍!

如果還能從來

일분이 그리억져요

너무나 많이 사랑한 죄

남자친구

이홍기

愛情裡, 只有你和我.

曾經失愛, 焉知非福

陰天

有點失望

親愛的(圭鐘)

有夠討厭的

簡單愛

有問題

疲倦

사랑해요

尋找回那段愛情

這首歌

揮揮手

皆大歡喜

雙手

只有你

其實我是愛你的

多一次...♡

我愛泡菜...★

伸出雙手...★

無名回憶...★

不要給我問題想...♡

撐不撐得住...★

會更好...★

第九天...♡

好愛好愛你...♡

絕不後悔...♡

最珍惜的這兩天...★

大成功...★

一次有一次...♡

親愛的...♡

等待...★

不能不...♡

笑著說你太殘忍了...♡

回到沒遇見你的日子...♡

不想...★

不是我...❤

假裝...♡

祝我生日快樂...★

提前慶祝...★

不想了...★

球賽 ★

我很想你 ♡

我知道

我真的很累但又能怎樣呢